My body holds me captive and keeps me in discipline. If it was not for my body I may have to quickly given up on this journey to go deeper and to set myself apart. Not necessarily realizing the requirements of doing so, I chose to want to become strong and connected through Spirit.
All mystery traditions recognize great power comes from discipline and restriction. I have had no greater teacher than my body which has forced me to keep a clean diet and to refrain from the pleasures that most partake in. I know not everyone is meant to take this path but many are called and have yet to recognize the gift of a broken body. As your relationship with spirit grows the body will require higher refinement to hold the energy and to work with others. This can manifest as sensitivities that would otherwise not exist i.e sugar, alcohol, meat. Now the question is does restricting these things lead to a deeper relationship or is it the side effect of going deeper? I am of the opinion that it is a bit of both. Some are already called to clean their diets and to be more conscious of what is being put into their bodies others are forced by their bodies and some will it hoping they would be found worthy. Be careful when looking to do things to achieve favour, search yourself to find the truth of your intentions!
Great power is a side effect where the ultimate goal is not gifts and spiritual abilities but to come into deeper relationship and love with Spirit. If your body is broken and is demanding you to move into greater refinement then stop resisting and gladly take your teacher in hand and listen to the teaching it is bringing to you. By being disciplined with what we put into our bodies we become masters of ourselves. Once we master the self we become masters of the world. -Ria-Mae
I know so many of you who are in a place of fear and wonder right now. I see the pain and suffering you are putting yourselves through. You are willing to go deep and ask the important questions. You feel a deep sadness and loneliness in your heart and perhaps are thinking this will continue forever. Please do not forget all the things you have experienced in your life; the good things and the times when things unexpectedly took a turn for the better. Remain in hope and gratitude for those things and return to a space where you are full of energy and love.
The power for change is at your finger tips. Go to Spirit and talk it over...explain why you feel the way you do and perhaps your anger. Call out for assistance and guidance. I assure you your prayers will be heard. Things will change... ask that your eyes be made open to see opportunities where you could not see them before. Trust the process and stay dedicated to your practice. There are wonderful things in store for you. Every time you feel yourself slipping back into the fear go back again to the times where Spirit came through for you, rewire your thinking to remembering when your faith was strong. Your brain has simply forgotten and needs a little help. Stay in your heart and connected to love. You are loved and taken care of and in this moment you are okay. Keep reminding yourself you are okay! Go back to the wonder of your experience and the awesomeness to feel the deepness you are feeling. In the extremes of your sadness you will find the still point and truly learn to be happy no matter what is taking place on the outside world or to your body. Just as the seasons change so will you. You are all in my prayers as I work to hold space for you. Much Love - Ria-Mae